Oh well the writing isn’t happening as often as I would like but life is kinda chaotic at the moment.
Anyway after my last post I decided to give things another go with M…..things were cool for a couple of weeks but now its just back to how it was before I ended things with him the first time……and once again I find myself in the position of feeling like I need to end the relationship as I feel am being taken advantage of (again!), I haven’t seen him since Valentines Day and communication between us has been minimal…..I had a one word reply to a text I sent on Tuesday night and I think thats about the extent of our conversation this week…..Is it too much to ask to find a manwho wants to spend time with me or who can be bothered to get off his arse and go out and get a job or who is even the slightest bit interested in how my day has been……I’m beginning to think it is.
I kinda feel like he is just using me for sex and for money until something better comes along……i thought maybe this time we could make things work but I feel lonely and neglected and am soooo unhappy. Oh well thats just life I guess…..maybe its just that I am getting what I deserve cos I never seem to do any better
Right well thats it for now, just really wanted someone to talk to about it even though I guess really I’m just talking to myself…..cant say its really helped……
